Anyone had a nervous breakdown ?
 

Have you had a nervous breakdown ? How did you manage to get back on track ?

I'm anticipating mine to happen quite soon so i'll have to get back to you then.

I had a nervous breakdown in January because I was infatuated with this guy I had a thing for but who didn't like me back (He stood me up the day before too, I knw stupid but I was lonely and sad). I pre-gamed at a friend's house. Drank a whole bottle of vodka and walked outside in the snow to meet up with a friend I drunkdialed. I don't remember much. But I think I banged all the doors in my friend's apartment building to find him after he ditched me after I told him about how much I wanted to kill myself and after showing him my depressing poem. I even went with him to find the guy I had a crush on and even knocked on his door to see if he was there. He wasn't. His roommate who answered the door looked at me like o_0. After having a couple of embarrasing run-ins with some people, I tried to find another friend but he wasn't there. So I barfed all over his roommate's bucket and his roommate had to take me to my friend's room and all my friends supported me and told me to keep drinking water as I was barfing chucks in a plastic bucket as I was crying and crying asking them if I was going to die. Eventually, that bucket was half-way filled and I don't remember much, mind you. But, I crawled into an empty bed and slept sideways so I wouldn't choke and knocked out. This was all at 10 PM on a Friday. I woke up at 4 AM, super hungover and depressed, made my friend get me a Gatorade. The next day, all my friends ditch me. A lot of people at the college found out about the incident and it ruined my reputation (I was visiting). There you go: a story of one of my many nervous breakdowns.

***There are a multiple number of friends, mind you. It wasn't just one friend. Sorry if that's confusing.

My girlfriend has an amazingly intense phobia of sick and would absolutely despise you for making yourself vomit lol.

Anyway, I wish I could have a nervous breakdown... would be different to the norm.

No, I didn't make myself vomit haaha. I barfed bc I drank a whole bottle of vodka. I was actually p close to going to the hospital to get a stomach pump but I couldn't do that since I was visiting the school as a student on medical leave.

She would see that as you being intensly selfish by drinking so much and causing yourself to vomit.

I was v self destructive back then.

A couple of years ago. I wouldn't leave the house that much. I started drinking regularly sometimes getting through a bottle of spirits between a day/two days then buying some more a day later. I often got upset/aggressive and started to feel numb/indifferent to life.

The real low point was when I had to go to a tribunal in the magistrates court in front of a judge and explain why I was on esa. She brought up a map of the routes where I walk my dog as I tried to explain to her this is all my life consisted of and that I had zero friends. It was shameful for me, felt almost like I was being paraded in front of normal people.

When I got to a point where I felt I had nothing left to lose my mum had asked me what I wanted to do for my 21st. I don't do parties (I don't have anyone to invite lol) and she was insisting we did something extra special. We were meant to go on holiday but it didn't work out.

Without even thinking I blurted out that I wanted to go skydiving.

Next thing I know I wake up on my birthday with laminated copies of the voucher all over the house lol. I still felt indifferent in the following weeks though. Right up until the point where I had no ground beneath my feet and I was looking own on my town from 10,000 feet.

That experience will stay with me forever till the day I die. In that moment I suddenly felt in danger. In that moment I suddenly feared for my life.

Then came the greatest lesson in my life I think I could ever learn. I was in danger, my faith of surviving was in the hands of my tandem instructor, the equipment, god maybe? Anyone's hands but my own. I threw caution to the wind and took a risk, I broke out of this confined shell that was my anxiety and done something radical.

I had faith that I would touch down safely and I did. This made me realise that while I am anxious, that anxiety doesn't have to keep me locked in this shell, it doesn't have to become me. It often gets mentioned in front of people way more confident than I am and they say "screw that". I broke the shackles to do something huge.

I felt so empowered I went back to college and am now about to go to university. I have a long way to go but I have kept the bottle of cologne I wore on that day, even though it's now empty.

Because if I'm down, whenever I smell that smell, I feel empowered again. I remember what I did and realise I can conquer great things if I put my mind to it :).

I'm not sure if what I had was a nervous breakdown but about 3 and a half years ago I had this weird feeling that came over me. Before that I had isolated myself, left school and didn't talk to much people. Anyways, one night a weird sensation came from my head to my toe - a weird energy that literally made me sit up in my bed. The next morning I had the worst/most intense feelings I ever felt. It was like a wake up call to change my ways. I was scared and never wanted to feel that way again..

Yeah I've had a few.

I don't think so, not yet

So many more than one hahaha. I've had at least 3-4 since last November alone.

Yes, I've had a nervous breakdown. It was gradually built up to over many years. How do you get back on track? Well, it happened more than 15 yrs ago and I wouldn't describe myself as 'back on track' yet! I'm not sure if anyone can advise you on that aspect of a breakdown ..... I'm guessing it's probably a very personal thing. Perhaps start by listing the causes of the breakdown and then see what lessons you can learn about how to deal with similar situations in the future. Perhaps you need to cut a 'toxic' person out of your life? Perhaps you need to rethink your career? You have to clearly identify what it was that caused the breakdown AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! Otherwise it will keep on recurring. Good Luck.

A few months ago I started cutting. Not deep, just so I can feel it. Anyways, the most intense one was when I was thinking about stuff, and my eyes got all shaky and I laid in my bed and cried and cut myself a little bit. Then about a month ago I was meeting up with some friends at a convention center, but they were really late so I had to wait for them, but I do really poorly in crowds, especially when I'm alone. So I found a fairly desolate area so I could cry. I really wanted to die, lol. I sound so pathetic/dramatic. It's a good thing I'll never ask for help, because then people would know, lol.

Yes I did once.

I was still mourning my dad's death, were in financial trouble (for over a year), I couldn't find a job...and then I got offered a my job as a sysadmin, and I had to decide if I were ready for a accepting a job bearing such a huge responsibility.

That's when I had the breakdown. How did I pull through? With the help of three people who genuinely cares for me and by REALLY pushing through that difficult time.

That truly one of the hardest times of my life.

Oh I wish I could just give you a long warm comforting hug!

You are NOT pathetic. Trying to go through this alone is one of the BRAVEST things one can do! But don't punish yourself! Every last one of us are just as vulnerable when things get bad. No person in the world is immune to suffering! But you need to reach out to someone! If you can't cope, you need to find someone, a friend, a docter, a pastor, anyone with whom you can have a long chat about these things! It is hard to expose oneself on such a personal level to even your closest friends, but if you are going downhill like you say, you really really need to find someone to help you turn around! Please! Please! Pleaaase!!!!

"Oh I wish I could just give you a long warm comforting hug!"
Trust me, you would think twice. And even if you went ahead, I have extreme issues with being touched.

I don't cut to punish myself. It's sort of a stress reliever. I'm dealing with it on my own (self-improvement blah blah blah), I don't want to bring others into my drama, especially when there's nothing they can do. Plus, half the time my issues are that I have to deal with other people so much, adding MORE people won't help me. Also I'm not going downhill, it's more of a really low plateau, lol. That is to say, I may still climb out of my pit, or whatever...
It's nice of you to be concerned, but please don't be. Things will turn out how they turn out.

I had a couple, but nothing serious.

How would one define a nervous breakdown?

I've feared one that presumably would require hospitalization. And I've sometimes fantasized about it as a nice long rest from reality.